Prophecy

I told myself that I'd be in bed by midnight tonight, so that I could get up early tomorrow and have a complete day. Whoops. Setting too many unattainable goals - the story of my life.

I went back onto the old Xanga today to find my graduation speech for Emily, and started reading some of my posts a little more than two years ago when I was struggling over my own college choice:

Sunday, April 30, 2006
"Anyways, for those of you who are still wondering about the college verdict - I'll be a part of the Harvard Class of 2010. As I said in an email to Jeff, I really made it much harder for myself in these past few days because even though I always knew that Harvard would be better for me in the long run, I still loved MIT. I loved MIT much more than I did Harvard throughout all of high school. But I always also knew that I couldn't keep living in my cozy little techie bubble. As I was saying to my counselor the other day, I loved math in middle school because I had math team, and I formed my little math bubble. Then came freshman year when the math team wasn't as organized, and I lost interest in math. Then I went to a math/sci techie school the next year, and I started gaining interest in science because of all the other opportunities available. So really, it's all been about my environment. I've never gone to a school where people were passionate about civil service, or art history, or economics, and even though I'd always prefer to stay in this cozy bubble that I've lived in for the past half of my life, it's time I went out and expanded."

How true. Now, I'm a science major, but I'm also heavily involved in the music/arts scene. I'm expanding. It's made me more confused than ever about where my life will lead, but that's okay. It just makes for a much more exciting ride.

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